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I Almost Died (Renee Nicole Good)

tasara — Fri, 09 Jan 2026 05:20:36 +0000

It’s been just over a year since the car accident. In the past few weeks, I’ve encountered a surge of energy and increased brain activity. Suddenly I am not afraid of falling down the stairs and the lightness I’ve felt all year, instead of passing, is settling in deeper. At one point last week I … Continue reading I Almost Died (Renee Nicole Good) →

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Stopping (from falling)

tasara — Sat, 01 Mar 2025 05:21:45 +0000

Free-falling is the implied scenario when people speak of hitting bottom. You kinda can’t have one without the other. But what they don’t tell you, is there are two types of hitting bottom: one is when you hit the bottom hard and everything smashes to pieces, and the other is when the change happens while … Continue reading Stopping (from falling) →

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Back in the Tunnel: (reconstruction)

tasara — Sun, 23 Feb 2025 00:49:21 +0000

There is always, endlessly, more than darkness.

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Bushwhacking: (the development phase)

tasara — Sat, 25 Jan 2025 05:04:46 +0000

I was clearly shown the path to recovery, but that didn’t mean the path itself would be clear or short. To see it brought palpable relief. This relief coincided with a dozen improvements in my health and state of being, as my system cleared from heavy-duty pain meds. The clearing allowed side-effects of anti-seizure medications … Continue reading Bushwhacking: (the development phase) →

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The Place Underground: (recovery)

tasara — Sat, 11 Jan 2025 15:16:55 +0000

I’m in that place underground many of us go to when life is too much. Most folks turn off the phone, which is really healthy to do…or unhealthy if one is completely cutting off their support system. Some do everything they can to avoid going underground by over-socialization or drugs or drink. Some go underground … Continue reading The Place Underground: (recovery) →

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Subdural Hematoma: (recovery)

tasara — Sun, 05 Jan 2025 03:42:42 +0000

I’ve entered a world that was there all along without my knowing it. It’s a landscape with few trails, as they keep telling me, everyone’s experience is different. This is why no one can tell me what to expect or how long it will take. Or maybe they don’t want to tell me because they … Continue reading Subdural Hematoma: (recovery) →

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I Am Worthy: (recovery)

tasara — Wed, 01 Jan 2025 02:00:18 +0000

My cousin and I planned a New Year’s weekend visit long ago and now she is quietly cutting vegetables in my kitchen while I hang in here, waiting for the next time I can take a pain pill. The fire has been going for days. She gets the cozy nest by the hearth, and I … Continue reading I Am Worthy: (recovery) →

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I Didn’t Ask for This: (back home)

tasara — Fri, 27 Dec 2024 22:51:54 +0000

I’m telling you, I didn’t ask for this. Most major things that happen in life, we can see them coming. Or if not, afterwards it really does make sense why it happened. Not this time. I’m pissed. I worked so hard, so hard to get where I was. So hard. I had a job I … Continue reading I Didn’t Ask for This: (back home) →

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Seismic shift: (back home)

tasara — Mon, 23 Dec 2024 19:20:39 +0000

Between my mother’s multiple falls, my car accident, and my sister-in-law’s mother’s stroke, there is a seismic shift happening in my family of origin. My family of origin has been one of minefields and psychological violence. It’s no secret. No one in my family would be shocked to read this. It is the atmosphere in … Continue reading Seismic shift: (back home) →

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It is Very Dark: Winter Solstice (back home)

tasara — Sat, 21 Dec 2024 18:14:38 +0000

Yup, that’s my big message, my meaning for Winter Solstice this year. It’s dark. That’s it. Back when I worked with homeless women, there was this young, beautiful dyke with a mohawk who had chosen to be on the streets after witnessing her brother being killed by a strike of lightning. She was a talented … Continue reading It is Very Dark: Winter Solstice (back home) →

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